The everlasting music debate....

So I was at the most amazing gig on Wednesday. For the second time I got to watch the sheer awesomeness of My Chemical Romance in concert! It was just an awe-inspiring show. The band really know how to entertain, Gerard Way especially. He is a pure performer, it's clear that that is what he lives for! And I got to see my future husband Frankie so I was damn happy anyway! :P


But that's not what this is about. This blog is about the difficulties of being an MCR fan! There are very few musical artists who get as much abuse for their work as My Chem do, and as a result their fans get the same. It's incredibly difficult sometimes to tell people that my favourite band is my Chemical Romance but I am not ashamed of it!


I have no problem with people having differing opinions to myself. Not everyone can feel the same and I can handle that (even though I would love to convert them all to the MCRmy!). MCR cause such debate though that I have now made one simple rule when anyone feels the need to judge them:

Unless you have listened to more than just any song on "The Black Parade" your opinion cannot be counted

Yes that probably sounds harsh but let me explain. The whole  massive media judgement on My Chemical Romance only started about 3/4 years ago when "The Black Parade" was released. Not many had even heard of the band or their first two albums but yet felt that they all had the authority to form a judgement on the latest album. The world went mad with that album, everyone just had to form an opinion, mostly just following the crowd in one way or another.


Here's the thing. Even with the massive 6 year long obsession that I have had with Frankie Iero and co. I will freely admit that "The Black Parade" is the worst album of MCR's discography, in fact even the band themselves have admitted that. it's not the true MCR stuff, they lost their punkiness and energy in that album. "Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge" always has and always will be my favourite album. It's the one that made me fall in love with the band and it's the one I can always turn to no matter what my mood. 


Back on track... People do not give MCR a chance because of all these preconceived notions that they have made from hearing stories of stupid emo kids and MCR making them do stuff and all this shite. But that's not MCR and they never would do that.


In fact those kids annoy me nearly as much as the people who claim to hate MCR but yet have never listened to them! The annoying little teeny boppers who think it's so cool to be scene and emo and have to like MCR as part of the "trend". Most of them don't know the old MCR either, just the Black Parade stuff. They were all over the place at the gig, it annoyed me so much because they didn't even know half the songs played and when Gerard asked how many were seeing the band for the first time way to large a proportion of the audience answered in the affirmative. That is just not right for a ten year old band! These annoying wannabe kids are the bane of my life. Stop looking for attention and actually appreciate the music that you are listening to instead of ruining the experience for everyone else.


So I imagine most of you were not bothered reading the whole way through that so in summary:
Until you can tell me that you have listened to songs off the first two My Chemical Romance albums (aka "I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love" and "Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge") don't bother even trying to argue with me about how "crap" MCR are because quite simply, you do not know what you are talking about. You are just making your judgement on a load of hype! However if you can prove to me that you know the old MCR stuff and still feel the same I will grudgingly accept differences of opinion. Or even if you're not a fan, just respect the guys for the talented artists that they are. 


And people research the band before you start pretending you know about them! Such as the act that they have completely rejected the emo stereotype that they have been thrown into! It's not hard! Just wiki them at least! - My Chemical Romance


I will leave you with one of my favourite songs off each album and please feel free to look up more!


I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me your Love - Vampires Will Never Hurt You

Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge - Thank You For The Venom

The Black Parade - Cancer
(This song is incredibly important to me so don't even think of making a comment, it's also amazing live)

Danger Day: The True Lives of the Fabulous Killjoys - S/C/A/R/E/C/R/O/W

Love you always,
Síomha aka XxCrazyAngelxX
XoxoxoxoxoX


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Currently listening to: Why, MCR of course! I'm trying to decide the best songs to advise you to listen to! Three Cheers was especially tough to choose from!
Currently Wearing: My lovely Roxy hoodie, My Dipsy T-Shirt, some black tights, and my ever faithful grey pinafore that I remember blogging about when I first got it! :D

Why bother?

I don't know what's happened to me this year. This whole semester I have just felt like the odd one out. I thought I was over that. But yet again here I am again. the more this happens the more I'm petrified that I'm verging extremely close to depression.

Yet again I got left in the lurch on my own. All my friends said they'd be out? Where were they. As has happened before I got left on my own to find other people which luckily I did. I'm sick of this. I may as well become a hermit, I'm practically there anyway.

I will admit that maybe it's partly me too. I don't know what's wrong with me these days. I'm getting upset about everything! I'm more defensive, argumentative and just generally not as laid back as I used to be. This friends thing is not making life easier though. I just want to feel included. is that really so hard to understand. But when I make the effort and noone else does how am I meant to feel.

Or what about the fact that some people just don't seem to want to talk to me at all or bother with me. There people who are meant to be friends who I haven't heard from in weeks.

I'm fucked up. It's as simple as. I'm going to try write in this more. Let my feelings out a little. Bottom line is right now I need people and it appears that noone wants to be there for me.

I promise I'll be back soon!

I've just realised how long it's been since I have last posted!

I'll be back soon I promise, I've had loads of ideas of what to write about but just never the time to get round to it properly!

I'm sorry and I promise to write a proper entry very soon.

Lots of love,

XxCrazyxAngelxX

XoxoxoxoX

In the Summertime....

Well summer has finally arrived. Exams are over, all my stuff is moved back home and I'm sitting in my Dad's office acting as his secretary for the day. For the next 2 and a half months I am completely free from all things study related.

Well I should be...
Instead in two weeks time I will be starting a six week long adventure as a Research Assistant for the NUI Maynooth SPUR (Summer Programme for Undergraduate Research) programme. In some crazy fluke I was picked to be the assistant on one of the History projects. It's all about the tactics used by the the governments of Portugal, Rhodesia and South Africa after 1961 to preserve white-minority rule in their respective territories (Yes I did basically just copy and paste that! :P). I am quite looking forward to this. The information will definitely be fascinating especially for me who was born and lived in Southern Africa and I have done Research projects on the whole aspect of racism in Africa before (Ah Leaving Cert History - Seretse and Ruth Khama thanks for making me pass!). But at the same time getting worried! I can only imagine myself getting completely lost and not having a clue what I am doing! I tend to do that a lot! I'm just going to have to try my hardest and hope that I do not disappoint I guess! I'll try to keep you all updated on how I get on anyway!
Oh and once I finish that I'm straight into working on the NUIM Law Newsletter The Golden Thread so we can have it ready in time to recruit as many First Year Law students to work on it for next year! It's going to be weird not being the youngest next year. I'm going to have to know what I'm doing in Second Year!

I've also got a chance of getting a job this summer hopefully! I have an induction at the Aviva Stadium tomorrow morning at 10am which I am hoping will turn into a job that will pay every so often! I have already had to turn down one job because of SPUR so I need this one! I am sick of having to ask my parents for money all the time. My plan is to save as much of my earnings as I can this summer so that I can pay my way through College for a while next year! The SPUR will get me €1500 so with the hope that after all the necessary expenses like travel have been paid for the rest of the money will hopefully be able to keep me going through as much of First semester that I can manage!

My only other plans for summer are to hopefully buy myself an Oxegen ticket and enjoy that! All in all it won't be a particularly exciting summer but I will make the best of it!

I was going to add more to this about the drama of my birthday but I've decided that that needs a post of it's own so that's up next! :) I'll let you all look forward to that and enjoy summer everyone!

Lotsa Luv!
Síomha aka XxCrazyxAngelxX <3
XoxoxoxoxoxoxoX

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Currently listening to: The silence of my dad's office! Damn computer doesn't have speakers! Although I do have to recommend that everyone looks up the French Eurovision Entry and welcome Summer in with that! It is the ultimate Summer song and should have won! :D
Currently Wearing: My 'not warm enough to go too summery outfit' - black flats, my classic Grey Skinny Jeans from Pennys, my awesome H&M orange leopard print strapless top with my black belt on the waist and the staple black cardigan! Funnily enough apart from the shoes and cardigan everything I'm wearing is all a few years old by now! And even the cardigan and shoes are just new copies of my old falling apart black flats and cardigan! :D Who says new clothes are a necessity? Oh wait, that would be me! :P

Oh the Drama!

I'm presuming that most of you reading this do know me and so most likely heard about the drama that befell my Maynooth Birthday Party last Thursday. For those who didn't let me explain. For most of us Thursday was the day that all our exams finished, and was to be our last night out in Maynooth for the academic year so it was of course a mad night! I had arranged to have a belated birthday party for myself in my friend's apartment because I knew that my roomates still had a Theology exam that they needed to study for.

Quite considerate of me don't you think? Pity my roomates couldn't think in the same way. They had a long break in between their exams so had plenty of free time which meant that they could have their own parties, the nights before Rachel (my other roomate) and I had exams! Luckily I missed most of the party they held before my exam but poor Rachel had to put up with four of them causing as much noise as 40 normal people would! The girls had also previously come into the kitchen where I was clearly studying with friends and decided to shout every word they had to say to each other over us. Us studying could literally could not hear each other over them! it was completely rude but I tried to let it slide along with the disgusting mess that they constantly left the kitchen in, and all the other things that I could rant on for days about!

Anyway Rachel and I decided that a little revenge was necessary after everything we had put up with from them so we decided to visit our own apartment with our (very loud) friends for a few minutes while our darling roomates were studying for their exam that was the next day!

Apparently a very bad idea. The results of that ended up ruining the rest of my night and thus scarring my memories of the end of First Year! Call me depressive but it wasn't nice. Basically as I was walking into the Pub i received a delightful 4 page text from "the girls" calling me "fucking rude" and "childish" and let me know that they had informed the RAs and the caretaker and apparently blamed me on a fire alarm going off that went off while I was in the queue for the pub. And they added a nice mature smiley face at the end too. Well I broke down at that, it was vicious, bitchy and unnecessary. Yes we probably shouldn't have gone downstairs but if they had been paying proper attention they would have also noticed that I was the one who felt bad and then got everyone to leave!

But nope, it was all my fault. As was told to Rachel when she texted the girls and asked them to leave me alone. She was told to stay out of it and to control her childish friends! It didn't end at that either! More texts came through accusing me of all these things that had all been explained rationally before but no all they had to say was "its real cute the way you try to be cool but it will cost ya dont worry. weve put up with alot of stuff but you just blew it this time" and "dont be turning this around on us its you who has been the problem and well you know it." I was also accused of stealing loads of food from them and all kinds of shite. I swear to you all that the most food I have taken from them was a bit of butter or a drop of milk. I don't know what fairyland these girls have been living in! Clearly they hated me all year long!

That was my limit then. I had been hurt enough and my night was ruined. All I wanted to do was pack my stuff up and go back home to Wicklow, as far away from them as possible! As soon as I got home that night I started packing, I had to make myself go to sleep! Those texts are now going to be what I remember from my first birthday in Maynooth, and the end of first year. I can barely remember the good memories now!

The funniest thing about this whole drama is that the next day I got 'nice' text messages from two of them when they realised that their deposit was at risk and that they needed the apartment clean! There was no sign of bitchiness then!

I'm sure I could go on for much longer but I won't. You have heard enough! I would love to show you all the whole messages but it's just not worth it! I'm trying my best to get over it but I don't get over these things easily so just bear with me I guess! :)

Oh and One more thing. I asked the caretaker about the accusations the next day and he didn't have a clue what I was talking about! So either the girls made it up or he didn't care! Either way nothing "cost me" like the girls claimed it would!

Anywho Luv you all as always! :)

Síomha aka XxCrazyxAngelxX <3
XoxoxoxoxoxoxoX

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Currently listening to: and Currently Wearing: Nothing has changed in the two mins between this post and the last! :)

A letter

Dear Admin Law,

I would just like to let you know that you suck. and if you stop me getting into law next year I will never forgive you. Now I must head to bed so I can get three, maybe four, hours sleep so I can also get up early to study for your damn 9.30 am exam.

To summarise you owe me!

Lots of love,
Siomha

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As I'm sure you can guess, I am very stressed right now! I have realised that I do not have a clue for my exam tomorrow! I am absolutely dreading it right now!

Three days and my exams will all be over! I can not wait!

That's all for now, Just wanted a little stress relief!

As said above I need to get to sleep!

Night guys! :)

Luv ya all! :)

Síomha aka XxCrazyxAngelxX <3

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Currently listening to: Nothing! they only thing going through my head is how little I understand Admin Law! Very depressing! :)
Currently Wearing: Only just home after 13 hours away so am still wearing what I have been wearing all day which is my my classic black tights, black shorts, my purple check shirt and a lovely belt stolen off Mammy to cinch in my waist and complete the look! Even that was too warm of an outfit today though! Heat is not a good thing when studying!

Birthdays and Exams should not be allowed to clash!

So a few people have mentioned that they read this recently so I thought I better update it! hope you enjoy and welcome new readers! :)

So I'm sure you can guess from the title that it's Exam season as well as my birthday! Well it was my birthday two days ago! That just feels like forever now though considering that that day and yesterday just consisted on studying an early mornings with an Exam today! It's one of those "the days are going so fast but so slow!" kind of moments! It also doesn't help when I'm having to get up at 6am after less than four hours sleep!

So for the second year in a row my birthday has been pushed aside whilst exam take priority! And that they are definitely doing! I have been getting very stressed out this month trying to study and feeling as if this all looks far too new to me.

Study has always been my downfall. It's not something that comes naturally although I must note that I have improved since last years Leaving Cert Disaster and even since the Christmas Exams! Which is more than a welcome improvement. I think if nothing else the Leaving Cert gave me a huge wake up call! I didn't get anywhere near the points that I wanted and know I could have gotten if I'd actually put in effort and it is my aim for the next few years to completely make up for that and prove that I am not completely useless!

So far I have had two exams with the next one in exactly 4 hours and 57 minutes. The first one, Contract Law, could have gone much better and considering I need an average of 60 between all my law exams to do it in second year, "could have gone much better" is not really enough. Thus why I really need to kick ass in my Constitutional Law Exam today and my Administrative Law exam on Monday. I can see the stress really getting to me as well. A lot of people have been snapped at in the last few days! For which I apologise greatly to all! The pressure is getting to me. It tends to do that when you can see your dreams swinging back of forth in front of you just out of reach. My one reassurance is that between my 61 and 72 from last semester I have a bit of leeway in the whole getting the 60 drama. I just hope I can keep it up!

I don't know when exactly I decided I wanted to study Law but In know it happened when I started rethinking those dreams of medicine I had had as a young kid. I'm pretty sure that my dad doing an arbitration degree definitely had an effect anyway! And working in a huge law firm only fuelled my ambition!

One day I will be the kick ass lawyer that I want to be be, it's just a pity that it's so hard to get to that stage! I love the subject, the exams not so much!

I'm sure I could say plenty more but I think I shall leave it at this. The Doctrine of Unenumerated Rights is warning me that I only have 4 hours and 35 minutes left to give it some attention!

Good luck to anyone doing exams. I hope everyone does well! :)

As always, Lots of luv,

Síomha aka XxCrazyxAngelxX <3>
XoxoxoxoxoxoxoX

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Currently listening to: The cars outside! Suprising the activity outside for 7.50 in the morning! I would usually be dead to the world in bed at this time. Already been up an hour and 20 minutes today though! :( Also have a bit of YouMeAtSix's version of Pokerface stuck in my head!
Currently Wearing: My Comfy pyjamas! I'm still sitting in bed! :D Must get out soon so i can find something to wear and to get studying!